I am not sure exactly what's happening here and so am trying to make sense of it by writing. Things might just become a little less hazier, once they are out on screen.
We have this maid coming to cook meals in the morning. She is petite in her early forties and has a pleasant demeanour. Sometimes she is asked to make tea. Now it has become her habit to ask me if I want another cup of tea in the morning. She approaches me pleasantly and touches my fingers while handing the cup.
She keeps herself neat and tidy and there's nothing elegant about her appearance. Yet there is a strange attractiveness about her persona. I am noticing more of her these days and that unsettles me. She is so small that one can just lift her easily in one's arms. Her demeanour is very pleasant and perhaps that makes one notice her.
She usually offers to keep the garbage cans out. Yesterday while keeping the cans out, she turned and tried to cover herself with the open end of her apron. She wears it over her top and tries to adjust apron from time to time to cover her chest portion. It so happened yesterday that her gesture left open the left half of her top. Nothing was exposed, but the gesture drew my attention to her breasts. They must be small and not very firm, I thought. I also thought she had done it involuntarily to draw my attention to her.
That left me wondering. Was she trying to seduce me or was it that I am getting attracted physically to her? Either way I must take note and take charge of my discretion. There is no doubt I like her being in the house and moving about in her usually brisk and pleasant manner. Let that pleasure continue at least.
We have this maid coming to cook meals in the morning. She is petite in her early forties and has a pleasant demeanour. Sometimes she is asked to make tea. Now it has become her habit to ask me if I want another cup of tea in the morning. She approaches me pleasantly and touches my fingers while handing the cup.
She keeps herself neat and tidy and there's nothing elegant about her appearance. Yet there is a strange attractiveness about her persona. I am noticing more of her these days and that unsettles me. She is so small that one can just lift her easily in one's arms. Her demeanour is very pleasant and perhaps that makes one notice her.
She usually offers to keep the garbage cans out. Yesterday while keeping the cans out, she turned and tried to cover herself with the open end of her apron. She wears it over her top and tries to adjust apron from time to time to cover her chest portion. It so happened yesterday that her gesture left open the left half of her top. Nothing was exposed, but the gesture drew my attention to her breasts. They must be small and not very firm, I thought. I also thought she had done it involuntarily to draw my attention to her.
That left me wondering. Was she trying to seduce me or was it that I am getting attracted physically to her? Either way I must take note and take charge of my discretion. There is no doubt I like her being in the house and moving about in her usually brisk and pleasant manner. Let that pleasure continue at least.
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